We are busy busy busy LIVING right now. It seems that there is something to do every day after school and every night another errand to run. I love and hate this time of year. Spring is wonderful and the weather has been fantastic, but it seems school is busy cramming everything into the last three weeks. Madeline is playing soccer, two games a week. Charlie just finished up track season and there are band and orchestra concerts to attend. What am I complaining about?!? At least I am alive to do these things! Silly me. I will stop with the complaining. LIFE IS WONDERFUL!!!
I have had a three week break from chemo and have enjoyed the time off immensely. After my last round of chemo, it was time to reevaluate my treatment. Dr. C ran the usual blood work and I had a CTscan. The CTscan was negative, showing no cancer. What a relief it is when those results are given. I feel good, I look good, but will the test reflect that? They sure did this time! My CA125 (which was taken this last Monday) was 40. That was disappointing – up from 16 and totally going in the wrong direction. I let myself feel down about it, but Richie reminded me about how good I feel, how good I am looking and how well things have been for me physically. So I let myself feel sad for awhile. I think I am over it now….
The CTscan also showed that I have something called “hydronephrosis of the kidneys.” This is a swelling in the ureters, something usually associated with kidney stones. Dr. Chapman thought I would need to have stents inserted in my ureters and her staff was working to find time for the urologist to do this and for Dr. Chapman to do an pelvic exam under anesthesia. This is mostly why I got a three week break from chemo, the scheduling was difficult, but Dr. Chapman didn’t seem to be worried about me not being on chemo for that period of time.
Long story made even longer – the urologist was sure I did not need stents. He feels that this will be a chronic problem, a result of the re-implantation of the ureters into the kidneys from the January 2009 surgery. I seem to have a ‘back flow’ problem. I have an appointment with him tomorrow morning to discuss the results of a recent renal lasik test. This was done last week and is a nuclear medicine exam to test the function of the urinary tract. I hope to have a clear answer tomorrow regarding the ureters and what I can expect in that regard for the future.
The most important news though I have saved for last. Today I had my exam with Dr. C and she DID NOT find any cancer!! She spoke with Richie after the exam and she said we are on the high side of the roller coaster. I prefer the peaks to the valleys. She is a wonderful doctor and a pragmatist. She won’t give us estimations and guesses. She gives us hope though to help us through the good and bad and I am glad to be in her care. And her approach works for me...it helps me to appreciate each day and live it to the fullest. I will always have the ovarian cancer to contend with. It will always be a part of my life. How I let the cancer define my life will be up to me.
The most important thing I take away from today is that the good physical health that I am feeling is reflected in my blood work, scans and physical exams. The better I feel, the more I can do and the stronger I feel. Naturopathic and homeopathic medicine stresses the importance of keeping oxygen levels high by exercising and eating well. I am doing all of those things and in celebration of that I bought a new bike today. It’s blue and I love it. I rode it home from the bike shop and then Richie and I went on a short bike ride. I have been walking every day, but I love bike riding and I haven’t been out on my own in two years. It felt so good and I had a big smile on my face!
I hope you are all doing well. Thanks for the prayers and good energy. I feel it, I am living it and I wish I could hug each and every one of you right now to show you just how well your prayers have been working.