Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Chemo Free Days

Today I am at home having a vitC treatment. I love these days. It is so nice to be in my home and in my jammies.
I am not watching the calendar, nor am I counting the days, but it has been almost six weeks since my last chemo treatment. I don’t know if that was my last treatment or not, but I do know that I love, love, love being off chemo! It feels so good to FEEL GOOD.

Last night we went to C's last band concert of the school year. It was wonderful. His instructor is a fantastic teacher and the band is talented and fun to watch. They did an excellent job. I was reminded that last year at this time, I was fighting my way out of the hospital so that I could attend a ceremony for Madeline’s 9th grade recognition. I remember telling the doctor, who was reluctant to release me, that I didn’t know how much ‘time’ I had and that I wasn’t going to waste any of it laying in an uncomfortable hospital bed missing my child’s shining moment. I was full of piss and vinegar that day, but I was also scared to miss any chance to see my babies shine!

Fast forward one year – I am walking the dogs for an hour each morning (about 3 miles or so), taking a good bike ride during the day and taking a spin with Rich after he gets home from work. I visit the library, the post office and sometimes the bakery:) on my brand new blue bike! Everyone deserves a little treat now and then! I start a spin (bike) class the first week of June and plan to start yoga again about the same time. I feel like I can do anything right now and I haven’t had any steroids in about six weeks! I sent in my application for the rafting trip yesterday and mowed the back yard. Last year, I was on doxil and could not be in the sun. I spent a lot of time sitting on the porch. While that was peaceful and calming, it is far better to be on the mower and planting flowers.

School is almost over. M leaves for Russia in less than six weeks. I had a good cry today about that one. She reminded me that I would spend the first week missing her, the second week getting used to her being gone, and then she’d be home in less than five weeks! She seems to have adopted my tendency to rationalize anything. I am thankful for that.

Charlie is finishing eighth grade and will be in high school next year. Yikes! How did that happen? I am looking forward to being able to concentrate on just Charlie. He is an amazing person and is often overshadowed by Madeline. He will have some time to shine while she is gone.

I go in to the hospital tomorrow for a short procedure. I am having stents put in my ureters. This will give the urologist a chance to look at everything, make sure my urinary tract is healthy and see what might be causing the hydronephrosis. I should be home by the end of the day.

I am looking forward to some warmer days, we’ve had lots of rain and not enough sun for my liking, but really I am happy with anything. I am just happy, it’s as simple as that. Send your good energy, prayers and thoughts my way this next week. I have another oncology check-up on Friday, May 28. I hope to share good news, but I am prepared for whatever life throws at me! I am doing my best to enjoy every day, chemo free or not!



nat said...

Yay Maggie!!! Being out of treatment is a wonderful thing :)
I hope your stent installation went well, and will be sending all kinds of good energy your way for your check up at the end of the month.

Big hugs!!

Dahlia said...

This is just fantastic!!! Enjoy your summer.
Lots of love coming your way...